For two solid months, I sat staring at a blank screen, procrastinating on launching The Unknower’s Journal. I kept waiting for the right moment, the right polish, the right version of myself to show up. I thought this “Start Here” page was a neat little welcome mat designed just for you—a tidy introduction to ease you into what I do.
Turns out, I was dead wrong.
This post wasn’t for you. It was for me. It was the universe’s way of forcing me to stop hiding, stop editing, and start now, no matter what state I’m in.
So here I am. No makeup. Hair completely unbrushed. Wearing a cozy sweatshirt, sitting at my desk in the high desert. Completely unpolished and totally real.
If you’re new here, you should know something right off the bat: I died four times. While in a coma on life support for nearly a month, I suffered four cardiac arrests and two massive strokes. I woke up with my central vision gone in both eyes—and it may never come back . Over the last two years, I had to learn how to do everything from scratch again: lift a finger, sit up, walk, and feed myself.
When you survive something like that, you lose all patience for spiritual performance and marketing bullshit. You realize that life is far too short to wait until you look “camera-ready” or until your fear of being seen for your aftermath finally decides to quiet down.
That fear of visibility—of being seen after everything my body has been through—has been my biggest edge. But sitting here on video for the very first time, hitting record without a script or a filter, that is how we cross the edge.
This is my starting place. Whether we’re talking about my wild years touring the country following the Grateful Dead, the stark contrast between corporate America and free-spirit truth, or what it means to rebuild a life from the ground up while loving the oceans from afar and sitting at the kitchen table together—this is where it begins.
I want to belong, I want to be heard, and I want to hear you. No pretense. No rigid roadmaps. Just pure presence and unvarnished truth. Connection.
Watch the video above for my very first unscripted transmission. Hit subscribe, drop a comment, and make yourself at home.
Isness is My Business. Let’s shed some skin.
— Eileen
so, so good to see you and hear you, Eileen. What an epic journey. You are miraculous, my friend, and it's been incredible to walk beside you as you've healed and are now beginning to reveal the new you. The world is a better place with you in it. Excited for more people to have the chance to connect with you now and experience your off-the-charts brilliance. And yes, let's shed some skin!